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Howdy! I've returned to DeviantArt after 8 months. I've had UNBELIEVABLE experiences inside these times!! I was engaged to a billionaire Saudi Arabian Princess in May (no, SERIOUSLY!), and I broke up with her 3 weeks later because she constantly made excuses which I don't tolerate.

Next my parents separated and I had to be the one to get them back together. It took me a solid month of moderating them but I did it!

I had a house appraisal in March for a refinance, and I had to have my pool house spotless, so I was legally granted permission to overdose on my Oxycodone for over a full month (I was taking 12 of my 7.5mg pills each day instead of 6 per day and refilling every 14 days instead of 30 days, 3 times in a row, which is so insanely rare and exceptional that it's unheard of). I got the pool house done and it paid off!! I was able to work around the clock with that extra medicine and doing that got the appraisal up to the target, saved my parents house and my pool house and lowered our house payment by over $1000 per month!! :')

3 weeks ago I had to get all four of my bottom front teeth removed.

Just yesterday a young Southern biker boy scout Furry, who is just like me in every way, met me and wanted to be my friend! He is about a decade younger than I am (although you'd think I was the younger one comparing us). He is already my best friend and soon-to-be my Saddlebro when he gets his Harley! He is so awesome! I hope to spend many days in the saddle with a good friend... :')

Now all seems well. I played a central role in stabilizing life at home this year. I just want to be happy now.

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Takatoo Kahtukee (TACK-uh-too)
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United States
Me in real life:
My name is Takatoo Kahtukee (TACK-uh-too kah-TOO-keee) I am a Texan-born biker with a deep passion for Southwestern style black leather. I am also a (straight) Furry who loves avians of all types. I'm a nature lover and an environmental conservationist.
I'm a Texan boy of European and Native American Plains Indians, mainly Chickasaw and Cherokee. My soul is playful and wild, and I'm very spiritually powerful.

I don't follow a schedule at all. I just go with nature's flow and let life take me whichever direction the wind blows.

I'm the Scout Leader of my own biker scout group who rides around the Phoenix valley and scouts the roads and fields for recyclable litter. I collect the litter in my saddlebags, then take it to the recycling center.

Since my bike is down for repairs, I'm currently a regular, lone boy who refurbishes old, broken electronics to work and look like new for the sake of environmental and historical conservation.

I'm definitely not your average young male. My body of 128 lbs at 5' 10", my tribal nature and heritage, my Texan upbringing and my deep passion for leather have primed me to be a natural-born biker inside and out, and that's exactly what I am! :)

Someday, I hope to find a girl in real life who loves to ride a motorcycle. That would mean more to me than ANYTHING to find a girl with whom I can share my passions. Sitting on a motorcycle's passenger saddle and hugging a girl, dressed in leather, that I love as the wind blows her hair in my face would be the happiest, most deeply romantic moment of my life! :heart: I would do anything for that girl.
No one has a clue just how much it would mean to me to belong to a biker girl I love. That'd solve all of my problems. <3
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Howdy! I've returned to DeviantArt after 8 months. I've had UNBELIEVABLE experiences inside these times!! I was engaged to a billionaire Saudi Arabian Princess in May (no, SERIOUSLY!), and I broke up with her 3 weeks later because she constantly made excuses which I don't tolerate.

Next my parents separated and I had to be the one to get them back together. It took me a solid month of moderating them but I did it!

I had a house appraisal in March for a refinance, and I had to have my pool house spotless, so I was legally granted permission to overdose on my Oxycodone for over a full month (I was taking 12 of my 7.5mg pills each day instead of 6 per day and refilling every 14 days instead of 30 days, 3 times in a row, which is so insanely rare and exceptional that it's unheard of). I got the pool house done and it paid off!! I was able to work around the clock with that extra medicine and doing that got the appraisal up to the target, saved my parents house and my pool house and lowered our house payment by over $1000 per month!! :')

3 weeks ago I had to get all four of my bottom front teeth removed.

Just yesterday a young Southern biker boy scout Furry, who is just like me in every way, met me and wanted to be my friend! He is about a decade younger than I am (although you'd think I was the younger one comparing us). He is already my best friend and soon-to-be my Saddlebro when he gets his Harley! He is so awesome! I hope to spend many days in the saddle with a good friend... :')

Now all seems well. I played a central role in stabilizing life at home this year. I just want to be happy now.
I can look forward to a happy December! :icondragonwant:

I'm getting my house cleaned, I have new deviations on my PC ready to be uploaded soon, and I'm also free to be available to new friends. :meow: Emily is my best friend by far (and also my first watcher and most active watcher). That really means a lot to me! :iconbigmeowplz: To Emily in Minnesota, thank you for being so awesome!

It's going to take a while to return fully to dA. I haven't been an active member since 2012. Some people have caused me trouble, and I've caused others trouble. I've learned from past mistakes and strive to be a better friend. I can't stay down and push people away, because that only guarantees that I'll never change.

I'm going to work to rebuild myself and my account. I shut it down some years ago due to inescapable drama which carried over to this account 3 years later (believe it or not). Oh, if only people knew what I've been through in all these years. 10 years of dA wears on a person's soul, but I'm like a Phoenix; I can start over again. I still feel bad for the people who I hurt in the last 10 years though. I'm like a Phoenix, but I'm also like an Eagle. I bite, rip, and claw even when I don't mean to. :( I'm also a biker as everyone knows. Now you know why I'm called Phoenix The Biker Eagle..

Now I'm also free as an Eagle. I have only the future to look forward to.
It's been an eventful week of me freaking out and making an ass out of myself. I need to know when to shut up and stop overreacting to small things. Finally, after several years, I came to my senses.
Anyone who knows me knows I have a tendency to overreact whenever anyone I love tells me something I don't want to hear. I've made matters worse by asserting my stance when I shouldn't have done any such thing. I'm like an Eagle. I'm bold and brave, but I tear into people and claw them first time around, even if I don't mean to. When you mess with me, you mess with the Southwestern Eagle, but when you love me, you may get love-bit. Either way, I hurt people.

What I've realized is that I do best when I *don't* focus on friendship. This was why I left in the first place. I only returned because a girl I love really wanted me to return, and I hurt her by leaving. I thought leaving would spare people from my talons and my beak ripping into them. Apparently I was wrong either way. So what do I do? I have nowhere left to go without hurting someone. Do I start over and be friends with new people, do I try to repair the damage I did to people who knew me in the past and risk rehashing bad memories, or do I just leave and accept that I hurt the girl I love most? I can't do either of those, because each choice will hurt SOMEONE.

Now you see why my life is so hard. I wrecked this car, now I have to drive it. Perhaps I'm best being a troll. I'm always hurt inside because I'm lonely, but I can't seem to escape this.

Anyone who wants to be my friend should REALLY think about it first. Would you risk getting a 5-paragraph exposition from me over a slight miscommunication? I can't stop myself once I start because I rage like a flaming Phoenix. That's what happened to me yesterday.

It's probably best I pack up and leave for good. The more I realize how I am, the more I realize that I'm a heartbroken ticking timebomb.
-Personal Entry 1- [TO BE PLACED IN SCRAPS]
11-05-2015 2:45 AM Phoenix Arizona time.

I have to get past this. Just seeing this website gets my heart pumping. I'm obviously traumatized by 2006, 2010 and 2012 here on dA. After the ordeal with Shannen in September 2012, I was never able to rebuild my social life. That hurt me worse than anything. I wouldn't dare tell her that, but fortunately she's not a watcher. I'm also changing my avatar soon; I'm making my own. :meow:
I'm 25 now, and I need to live up to my name and rise again. I can't stay down anymore.

Getting Sáphira repaired is my other top priority, and I'm making good money on surveys each day. I'll be back in the saddle by the beginning of 2017 or Summer 2016 or as soon as I get her a new gas tank. I'm also getting some very pretty leather clothes to wear when I ride. <3

I haven't watched TV anymore. I don't Skype anymore. I don't use social media anymore. I don't go anywhere anymore. I don't even make phone calls or text anymore. I may look back on this entry and think I was crazy in this time, but I've spent three years in the dark, basically living in the Seventies.

I need to express myself again. I'm an adult now, so I'm going to express adult thoughts and writings. I need to remember to engage in conversation only when necessary whenever anyone comments on my work. I don't want to get tied up in emotions again because I'm easily sucked into anything that might turn into love. That's wishful thinking that nearly cost me my life five and three years ago.

Lastly, it's 3:17 AM. I'm uploading some new photos and work very soon. I have to get back into the habit of coming here every day. I just always feel nervous whenever I see a new message. My pulse is 183 right now just because I'm here. I also just read Beky's note, and it made me cry. I wish I could tell her what I want to tell her, but I'm way too scared of the consequences. I'm scared of so much here, and that's crazy because I fear absolutely nothing in the real world. dA is where every relationship, every crush, every friend, every breakup, every rejection, and every love has ever been in my life since 2005. I've never had a friend anywhere else.

3:33 AM. It's cold down here in Phoenix tonight. Just bundled up in my very comfortable leather night clothes head to toe and got sleepy immediately after putting them on. Time for bed. :3
I feel bad for being gone because there are still a couple of people out there who care about me, but I feel bad for staying because I'm afraid that I will say something stupid and hurt them. My past has also somehow followed me to this unannounced DeviantArt account. I was gone for years before I made this account. I can't deny that I have friends, but I feel like they deserve better than to have someone like me. I've screwed up so many friendships that I have never had a girlfriend.

Is it any wonder why I want to die? I just mess things up without even trying. I'm too scared to admit when I actually love someone, so I end up stalling, as is the case with one friend. If I die, I'll hurt those who care about me. If I don't die, I suffer with this social issue that plagues me. I don't know what to do anymore!!

Do I just press onward as a deviant and upload things, write things, but just not talk to anyone? Do I just leave and wait for my friends to find better friends than me? Do I risk it and be the best I can be despite having a history of losing every friend I have ever had? I just don't know anymore.

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